Help! Anyone out there?

“All I want is simple. Respect and a pleasant life.”

Hi. I am a mother of a 5 yr-old, 3 yr-old, and a 1 yr-old.

I work 15 hours a day as an online teacher and a writer. During my free time I do the house chores (except cooking) and taking care of the children.

It is always a long and tiring day. All these are nothing but the stress from a partner is what is slowly killing me.

I have thought of killing myself many times but I couldn’t because I love my children. So I end up hitting myself and cutting my hair.

Somehow there is relief and satisfaction when I punish myself for fighting for and putting up with a man who above anyone else torture me mentally and emotionally.

I feel like I have no where to go because my family disowned me for choosing this man… Do you now understand why being a masochist is my so-called resort?

Yes, I am despicable and stupid for being a doormat for this man. What can I do? I have 3 young kids and nowhere to go and noone to turn to. Yes I am doomed.

This man is good when he is not drunk. He is a very good father and a partner. Unfortunately, he just can’t avoid drinking and driving me crazy.. literally.

I have nothing much to say. Only if I could have a place to escape, a house, and someone who can help me and my kids to get away from here I would.

😪 God help me.

– This is how domestic violence makes women think and feel. This is dedicated to my friend whom I love so dearly.

Still

Wounded soul stay still, for time will surely heal.
Fill your eyes with beautiful sight, and let your heart see the light.
When hope seems like a dimming candle,
And everything is hard to handle,
Be still in God’s cradle,
For there is nothing that He can’t handle.

For when you wake up in the morning, And still see the flowers blooming, Rest assured that life goes on, You will see a bright new dawn.

Where there’s seems to be no way, God will make a way, So live your life to the fullest today, For as long as we have God come what may.

We all feel unready and hurled, Like a tumbleweed calamities, war, and the pandemic swirled, When will we all survive this? And finally say life’s a bliss.

Though many are now gone, The inevitable change is undone, So whilst we live we must adapt, For none survives trapped.

To win or outlast is not certain, But let us not let our soul weaken, Because we are being strengthened by burden, And good can never be beaten.

Forgive, forget, ignore, and love. Pray, enjoy, breathe, and share what you have, Because soon none on earth will matter, But the good deeds we planted in hearts will prosper. ❤

Hidden Paradise

“Take me to paradise, to where my heart lies. A place so blissful, my mind peaceful. My soul, full.”

We all need a break! The hustle and bustle of every day life, the never ending worries, and even the boredom of being in the same place all the time drain and wear me out.

Fortunately, I know where to drown these burdens and sometimes the waves just wash them away. 😊

It was in 2017 when I first visited Hinugtan. We rode a boat from Boracay going there and I was excited the whole time.

Going to Hinugtan for the first time with some Lapu-Lapu divers of Boracay and their families.

Tranquility, bliss, and paradise! The words that came to my mind when I first set foot in Hinugtan.

This is definitely my favorite beach. Why? The sand is white, the place is quiet because there are no many people, and the lilies are pretty. 💗

I have no worries letting my 3 kids roam around. The place is safe and clean. There are many beautiful shells for them to pick up and scared small crabs for them to catch too!

They would also pour sand on each other’s head 😆 and run around as if they own the place. Kids and the beach, lovely combination.

As for Jb, he is always up for diving with his dive buddy Naldo. They always make sure that their dive gears and equipment are ready to use, stored back in Naldo’s place. Of course! The dive site is a must-see in the place as well.

I could stay here for a week or more! Jb can dive, the kids can swim and play in the sand, and me stress free 😌.

It is not a sin to escape reality for a while, is it? Ok, moving forward.

One of the best things that I like to do in Hinugtan is to get cozy in a hammock when I get tired and sleepy. The gentle breeze seems to whisper lullaby to my ears.

I just relax there for hours while staring at the blue sky. I watch the clouds drift by and listen to some insects make sounds that feel comforting to me.

Beach Life During the Pandemic

Salt on my skin and sand on my feet every day!!!

So how do I start my day at the beach?… Well I wake up at 4:50 a.m., make myself a cup of black coffee and head out to my office!

My coffee tastes extra good with my morning view while having my online class from 5 a.m. to 7 a.m. The sunrise always starts my day beautiful.

Just like in any other beaches, boats and fishermen arrive at this time around and the locals come and wait for them. The fish is fresh and the cost is way cheaper than in the market, – and if the catch is bountiful, buyers might get more, or even free.

During the onset of the pandemic, the fishermen were blessed with good catch and they were also kind enough to give us and the rest of the locals living by the beach free fish.

People here help each other to cast the net and pull it up since it can’t be done by one man. As for the catch, they share what they get equally after a less than 40-minute of teamwork.

This is how the other end of the net and the teamwork looks like. It is the same on the other side.

As for me, when everything is bright and moving already, I often get tempted by the crystal clear water in front of the beach house. Swimming, as most of us already know, is one of the best ways to stay fit.

Sometimes me and my family would walk up to the end of the other side of the cove and pickup shells, or ride the paddleboard !!!!

Some of the areas in Malay were restricted to swim and we are just lucky to be exempted. The beach is our only playground, our happiness during the lockdown, and what kept us sane.

JB is also very productive during the lockdown. He planted bok choy, eggplant, okra, string beans, and cucumber at our backyard.

With the fish from the frontyard and the vegetables from the backyard, it made us feel a little bit secure that we won’t get hungry during the lockdown.

At 4 p.m., the kids play by the beach while me and JB wait for the sun to set. We always have beautiful sight in the late afternoon.

Another day is over and another one to look forward to…

Hambolhom, Nabaoy

When the heat seems to be unbearable, taking a dip in a refreshingly cool river is just the best way to beat it, or for a change when you always swim at the beach.

I love soaking into the river whenever I feel hot. I usually lie down on a shallow area, listen to the gushing sound of flowing water, and let every inch of my skin cool down. 😄

..And the fun doesn’t just end there. A perfect relaxation is not complete without music. While enjoying my invigorating moment, the boys of Hambolhom played their hand drums, tambol.

In filipino culture, in the olden days and even until now, tambol is used in healing rituals and sacred ceremonies.

This may be why I feel mentally and emotionally calm, as if healing is working from the inside out whenever I listen to the hand drum music.

It sets a certain ambience that makes me feel one with nature, overflowing with positive energy.

There is a beautiful fire pit perfect for hotdogs and marshmallows by the river as well.

Hungry yet? No problem.

I was suprised that we can actually order food for lunch there. They serve native chicken, fish, meats, my favorite crayfish 😍, and the fruits and vegetables that are available in the area.

…or we could have enjoyed lunch with this set up too.😆

Because the water is clear, you can see small fishes, tiny crabs, and black spiral shells that the locals around the river collect for food.

Next time I might collect shells and ask the chef in Hambolhom to cook them in coconut milk 🙂.

Many tourists in Boracay come to the river for a change and for a little adventure and I think the place is worth it.

It is more or less 20 minutes away from the island of Boracay and very accessible.